The Trich File: Day 3

Weight: 134.2 (woot!) Hairs pulled: Urgh..haven’t been counting, but we’ll say 10 for now. Alcohol consumed: None yet Books read: None Computer games played: None.

6:00: Argh…derned cat…no it’s not time to get up yet. It’s Saturday.

6:30: Ack…forgot to turn kiddo’s alarm clock off. Thank goodness she can sleep through anything..didn’t even phase her. Great…not kitty’s in my room. Fine he can snuggle

6:45: Ouch! Bad kitty…no biting! No more snuggles for  you!

7:00: Ahhh…Anders fantasies…nice. Time to get up and do some cleaning before Mom gets her. Hate having a messy house…she’s so critical sometimes.

7:30: Argh…why is there water all over the kitchen floor?! Hmm…kitty’s fountain is leaking or something. One more thing to clean up. Toss down towel to keep from running all over kitchen floor again.

8:00: Okay, counters wiped down in kitchen and bathroom. Toys and clothes put away in living room. Time to get dressed and wake up kiddo.

8:30: Take out tons of garbage…open garage door..there’s mom. Joy….hate bringing her in through the garage…the basement looks (and smells awful).

9:00: Farmer’s market…yay! Pastries from VG’s for breakfast (espresso chocolate chip scone for me, cinnamon roll for kiddo). Spent way more money that I thought I would…didn’t have any left over for mushrooms from Organicism since they were late getting there and by the time they got all set up, I had already blown all my money elsewhere. Crap! But got tons of other goodies: strawberries, wineberries, blueberries, buttermilk cheese, eggs, squash, eggplant, lavender honey ice cream, and cherry tomatoes. Going to make something yummy for lunch after everyone’s gone.

10:30: Back home….e-mail hubby to let him know we’re here so he can Skype whenever. Show mom our downed tree…and end up getting on the subject of sex and kids asking about it. Whoa….odd conversation to be having with my mom. But kind of funny in a way since for years, I wouldn’t even mention anything related to the “s-word” because I was having it and didn’t want her to know. Now that I’m married and not having it….well, guess it’s different now.

11:00: Still no word from hubby….ah well, he had said 12, so maybe he really can’t get on until 12. Watching cooking shows with mom while kiddo pretend-cooks in her play kitchen. My future little Food Network star in the making. :)

12:00: Still no hubby and we’re all getting hungry watching all these food shows. Finish off the last of our pastries while we wait.

12:30: Finally decided that apparently he can’t call or Skype today. Ah well..it is the Army and they do have to work on Saturdays. Get kiddo’s stuff packed up and in mom’s car and….her car won’t start.

12:45: Determined her battery must be dead…jump-started it with my car and viola! Yup….dead battery. Determined that she accidentally left the keys in the ignition and didn’t turn it all the way off when she got out of the car a few hours ago. Oops!

1:00: Ahhh…finally got the house to myself. Need to clean, but just want to flop around. Maybe make some lunch.

The Trich Files: Day 2

Weight: 136.8 (surprising since I only ate crackers and cheese for lunch) Hairs pulled: 15 (v.g.) Alcohol consumed: None (yay me!) Times snapped at child: One (v.g) Books read: “Dragon Age: The Calling” Computer games played: Dragon Age Awakening

4:30: Storm’s over, but blast if kitty doesn’t start meowing loudly anytime I roll over. I’m doomed to not get any sleep.

5:55: Time to get up. Nope, going to try to sleep just 15 minutes more. No hurry.

6:05: Argh…fine, I’m getting up already…just stop meowing!

6:06: Just love trying to walk to the bathroom with kitty entwining in my legs. First thing in the morning is not the time to test my balance and agility skills.

6:15: Makeup on, time to ponder wardrobe choices. Smells like something died down here…urgh. Probably the case, since the fireplace turns into a critter cemetary in the summertime. Must get it cleaned out and fixed before selling the house. One more thing on the list. Now…what to wear?

6:20: I hate “Black Skirt Fridays”. Stupid commissioner won’t let us do casual Fridays, so boss wants to impress him by going 180 degrees opposite and making us dress up. Easy for him since he doesn’t have to wear a skirt. Grab stretchy black skirt on top of laundry pile and sleeveless corset-looking pink shirt.

6:25: Get dressed..look in mirror. Urgh…look like biker chick. Short middle-aged biker chick. Jsut remembered I didn’t shave. Argh. Must wear boots to cover up hairy calves. Must change shirts to hide hairy pits. There…done.

6:30: Wake kiddo up and take inventory of now-limited breakfast selections. VitaTops still good…hopefully. Ponder lunch choices…even more limited. Decide on cheese quesadilla for Munchkin and crackers and cheese for myself. Thankfully, the cheese still seems good.

6:45: Arrghhh…damn cat…pooped again right as I started cooking!! STINKY! Going to relocate his litter box to the basement one day…consolidate all the stink in one area.

7:00: Time to hit the road.

8:00: Work…bleh. Not motivated at all to do anything. Just putz right along for most of the morning, alternating work with more entertaining posts on KnoxNews.

11:36: The summer camp called and…they had a slot open up for next week. Woo hoo!

11: 58: Another good phone call…hubby! Yay! Chatted about getting his car fixed. Turns out he didn’t take it anywhere to get it diagnosed, he diagnosed it himself. Told us to be on t he lookout for a package that should be getting here any day. Oooo…cool.

12:53: Daycare…argh. Did not want to answer, but did anyway. Yup…she’s got lice…again.Told them I couldn’t pick her up…they said I needed to get someone to do it for me then. Beh…good luck with that.

1:20: Mom called abotu this weekend. Was a bit snappy, I will admit, due to stress about daycare. But she is taking kiddo for the weekend. Yay! Gives me a chance to clean up a bit, then flop like lazy butt. Hopefully will get to hang out with Niles a bit. Haven’t seen him in ages.

1:30: Texted neighbor to see if she could pick up kiddo. No go…she’s at work and her hubby’s out with the kids. Ah well..was worth a shot.

1:49: MIL calls….and she’s on her way to work, so can’t even try to ask her to pick up kiddo. Ah well..at least my Avon stuff is in. New makeup is a happy thing.

4:30: Rest of day went by like angry slug. Me fuming about the fact that I can’t ask to leave to pick up kiddo because my boss is an uber-prick. Says my recent leave-taking is “excessive”…implies I don’t care about work. Grrr….he should look at the time sheets I key every week. I look like a bloody saint in comparison to about 90% of the people on campus. And not serious about my work? Gimme a break..if I wasn’t serious about it, I would’ve quit the instant hubby went active duty. Don’t need my piddly income that badly anymore. Tempted to quit sometimes anyway, but hubby would be annoyed…and with our luck, somethign would happen and we’d end up needing the money.

5:00: Picked up kiddo from daycare, endured little 20-something grousing about kiddo accidentally peeing on the slide on the playground. Told her no worries about her anyway since we wouldn’t be back until July…if even then. Tired of child being treated like pariah when she has better manners and is 10x smarter and more mature than most of the redneck and trailer trash spawn that go there.

5:10: Home at last. Hauled kitchen set up from basement so kiddo could play chef while I type this. Have sampled pretend chocolate cake, soup and chicken nuggets so far. Need to think about making some real food. Not feeling very inspired. Might order pizza or go out. Lack of sleep is making me lazy and killing my enthusiasm for healthy eating. Bad me!

5:40: Just remembered hubby’s package…checked and..yes! we got it! Tore into it with enthusiasm to find three red boxes of varying sizes. Two for munchkin and one for me. Turns out to be very beautiful jewelry boxes. One large and one small for her, both in ivory laquer with pink roses and gold accents. One large on for me in an Egyptian theme. Pretty!

6:00: Rummaged thorugh frig for inspiration. Nope..still got nothing. Swig of wine sounds good right about now, though.

6:30: Finally decided on eggs. Scrambled with cheese for Munchkin and frittata-style with squash and eggplant for me. Yum yum!

6:45: Playing some Dragon Age after installing some new mods. I am a mod fiend. Just wish I had the time and patience (and high-end computer) to do my own.

10:30: Yikes! I didn’t realize it was this late! Awww…kiddo’s passed out on the couch. Put her in bed, then crash myself. Ahhhh….

The Trich Files: Day 1

Weight: Don’t give a damn…ok fine, it’s 136.6, if you must know. Hairs pulled: about 25 (not great, not awful..prob less since I’m keeping track) Times snapped at child: 2 (v.g all things considered) Alcohol consumed: One glass of Apple Barn Applewood White with apple juice. Books Read: “Dragon Age: The Calling” by David Gaider Computer games played: None so far, but might do some Dragon Age since inspired by book.

Okay…day one of my self-therapy. Trich is usually treated by cognitive behavior therapy…which essentially boils down to making yourself aware of your bad habit so you can stop yourself. So, since I’ve been inspired by the Bridget Jones books to start keeping a diary, I’ll keep track of my trich.

6:00 – Power’s still out from the storm 2 nights ago. Joy. Must take shower…prob no hot water left after munchkin took her bath last night. Had to get her clean otherwise would’ve indulged in candlelit bath myself…could’ve used it.

6:05 – Barely-lukewarm/cool shower is v. bracing way to wake up in the morning. One advantage to being summer is that water didn’t get ice-cold at least.

8:00-4:30: V. boring day at work. Hard time staying awake…so tired from 2 days of tossing and turning. Spent more time shopping Coach outlet sale online and reading new Dragon Age book on Nook than doing actual work, I think. Funny that I used to scoff at Coach purses and the women that carried them, now I have one and want more. New Dragon Age book v. good…better than first one. Inspired to play some and write Hero/Anders fanfic that’s been bouncing in my head for past several days. Also wrote some on KNS website…like watching train-wreck with all the high-level stupidity that gets posted in there. Love playing “voice of reason”…guess that’s why I don’t get any replies. Got to piss people off to get attention….prob why people are obnoxious morons on there. Also found out that apparently cold showers are good for my hair…got compliments all day on how nice it looked.

5:00: Pick up Munchkin from school. Pay pool guy for key since I inadvertantly wrote check out to the wrong person. Freaked out wife since I wrote it ot to her and my handwriting looked like I’d written her maiden name and she couldn’t figure out how I knew what it was.

5:10: Open fridge after being off for 2 days…looks okay. Tried milk, tasted okay. So far, so good. Opened freezer…urgh, melted ice cream everywhere. Going to have to toss alot of stuff…grrr. Ah well, it was getting pretty full and there was plenty of stuff that needed to get tossed ages ago lurking in there, I’m sure.

5:15: Load dishwasher, scoop kitty’s litter box, refill water bowl.

5:20: Decide on quick and easy dinner of hot dogs on the grill. Soon as unwrap hot dogs, kitty decides to take nasty, smelly poop in litter box. Niiiice…why does he always poop when I’m fixing food? Blegh!

6:00: Hot dogs done, pour nice big glass of wine. I really want to take a nap.

6:25: Ate half of one hot dog…not hungry. Thirsty though…and want to take a big long nap.

6:30: Ah..thunder. Good….hopefully power won’t go out again, but good to know I wasn’t lying to kiddo when I said we couldn’t go to the pool because it was going to rain. Just didn’t want to go today…too tired. Going to play some Dragon Age I think….or read more in book.

8:30: Spent the past couple of hours snuggling with kitty and  reading “Bridget Jones: Edge of Reason”. Love those books. See so much of me in Bridget…aside from the singleton part. Though feel like singleton alot of the time due to hubby being gone so much. Funny that she and I both had issues with someone named Daniel..who was an arrogant, womanizing prick in both cases. Wine consumed…but not feeling even fuzzy at all. Would have more, but no apple juice left to sweeten it up since Munchkin drank the last of it. Ah well. Wonder how a wine smoothie would taste. Could try out new Cuisinart smoothie maker bought the other day. But if I did that, Munchkin would want some too. Though might help her sleep, giving alcohol to a 6-year-old not sign of being good mommy.

10:00: Went to bed after playing a little Dragon Age, tucked Munchkin into bed, and read a bit more of The Calling. Nice rainfall and rumble of thunder to fall asleep to.

11:00: Getting downright nasty out there. Thought I heard a crack of a tree limb…or tree…breaking.

12:30: Is this storm ever going to end? Wish I could sleep through it like the kiddo.

1:30: Sounds like it’s finally slacking off. Yay…sleep.

2:00: Holy crap….that sounded like it hit right outside. Yup…pitter-patter of little feet. Guess that exceeded the threshhold of what kiddo can sleep through.

2:15: Ah snuggles…and maybe now it’s finally over.

Being sick sucks….

Swine flue, N1H1, whatever you want to call it…it sucks.

I’m not massively sick….just sick enough to cause me to want to not do anything beyond lay around like a half-dead slug. My head hurts, my sinuses are showing me a large amout of hate, and I just feel totally worn out. My stomach has been talking badly to me as well.

I just knew I should have gone out and grabbed the stuff to do a neti flush yesterday…but by the time hubby came and picked up munchkin, I was already in Slug Mode and didn’t want to leave the house. Flushing out the ole sinuses might’ve prevented the massive onslaught of yellow snot that decided to pour out of my nose in the middle of the night, ruining what should’ve been my first decent night’s sleep in 3 days.

I guess I should be grateful that at least I get to stay at home and rest. Of course, I suppose that should’ve been a given anyway since the media has hyped up the whole flu pandemic thing, all I needed to do when I arriaved at Guard duty was say, “I think I have the flu…I’m feverish” and not only cleared the space around me in a 20 foot radius, but also got a resounding chorus from everyone in a supervisory position to say “You’re released for the day…go home. And if you’re not feeling well tomorrow, stay home!”

It would’ve been nicer if I’d just been able to sleep in this morning and not go in at all, but it’s always been my policy that if I’m sick, I go to work, then let someone tell me to go home. I guess it’s just my paranoid nature, but I don’t want anyone thinking that I’m faking it so that I can get an extra-long weekend…especially since I’ve already taken two days off due to munchkin being sick. Hopefully, we’ll all be better by Tuesday when I have to go back to work.

Being sick is also very boring. I shouldn’t go out (though I’m tempted to anyway) and no one wants to come visit and risk getting infected too. But I’m really craving some pampering and snuggles. Not to mention some decent food. Went grocery shopping the other day and ended up picking up tons of stuff for munchkin and nothing really decent to make for myself. Had a Powerbar for breakfast, munched on Cheese Ritz Bits after I got home, and am working on a bowl of rice with surimi and shrimp now. I was really wanting some more of that Starkist Mango Chipotle Salmon to put on it…it’s NUMMY….but I forgot to pick it up at the store because I thought I still had a packet left. But dernit…I want sushi! Hmm…maybe I could call in a carryout order to Tomo this evening and pick some up. That might work. They have 2 for 1 from 5-7…hmm….that’s sounding good. If only my stomach would settle…grrrr.

A Little Catch-Up for My Labor Day Hamburger, Please

Just a brief bit of updating before continuing on with this thing since i haven’t written in it in so long….

  • Finally went to Tech Training in Augusta, GA
  • Wrecked my car while I was there. Hydroplaned on wet interstate, spun out and smashed into a concrete barrier. I was okay, but the car was pretty bashed up.
  • Got a speeding ticket in the rental car while I was there (First major wreck of my life and first ticket in about 15 years…both within a couple of months of each other. I think my trip there was cursed.)
  • Graduated at the top of my class. Would have gotten the top honor if I hadn’t botched the test I had to take the day after the wreck.
  • Hubby and I decided, after I got home, to get seperated.
  • Moved out into an apartment. Got lots of new, spiffy furniture with my enlistment bonus.
  • Started talking to Daniel again, found out he had been two-timing me and Amy. Me and Amy had long, not-so-pleasant talk with him….decided he was trash and we’d never associate with him ever again.
  • Got orders to work on-base for a month.
  • Read Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now” and “A New Earth”. Had many epiphanies about life.
  • Decided to forgive Daniel…started talking to him again.
  • Have decided to start healthier eating regimen.

And that’s about it for the quick-and-dirty catch-up of my life thusfar. Now, back to your regularly-scheduled blogging.

Past lives…dreams and so on

Alot has gone in my life lately…alot of turmoil and stress…alot of depression and anger. I’ve been doing alot of thinking about alot of things (like how many times can I use “alot” in this post? LOL).

One thing that has been on my mind is the whole relationship between myself, Niles, Amy and Daniel. Ever since the first Saturday evening that we all got together, we have all acknowledged that there is a special energy in our group. This was reinforced by the card reading I did last Monday after I had a particularly vivid dream. The first card that I turned up was “Participation” which showed four people sitting in a circle, just like we do when we get together. The other cards were “Projections” which depict two people projecting masks to each other, “The Dream” which shows a young woman dreaming about a romantic embrace, “Comparison” which shows a tree and bamboo side-by-side, and “Success” which depicts a man triumphantly riding a tiger.

We have discussed that our connections seem strongly linked to past lives. However, I have never had any strong recollections of any past lives I might have led. Because of this, I have always felt apart from the rest…unable to share in those experiences. But upon further thinking, I am reminded of the “Troy Game” series written by Sara Douglass that I have enjoyed reading. In this series, a group of people are reincarnated through centuries of civilization to play out parts to defeat evil and reconstruct the protective “Troy Game”. While most of the primary characters are there from the beginning and continue through all incarnations, there are several vital players that enter the Game during later periods. The fact that they have not been a part of the circle of primary players from the beginnning does not make them any less important to the carrying out of the overall plot. This helps me to acknowledge that while I may not have the experiences that the others do, that does not mean that I cannot contribute in a meaningful way. I only have to discover what my place is in the group.

Also, I believe that once we are truly working as a group, we will accomplish meaningful things. The past few times we’ve been together, we’ve not really been together…one has always been a bit apart from the group. This past Saturday, Niles, due to his intense Reiki experience earlier in the day, stayed back from the rest of us, while the two times before that, I was the one holding back (mainly due to feeling jealous and left-out, which I hope that I will finally be able to overcome). I hope that before I leave, we can truly work together as a group and discover the amazing energy that we generate.

Poo-less and in Shopping Heaven!

This weekend was a really great one…especially in light of my desire to go more natural.

I found a link to instructions on how to wash your hair using only baking soda and apple cider vinegar. Since Munchkin was born, my hair has been a wreck….dry and brittle after washing, no matter how much conditioner I use…then itchy and oily after a couple of days. I’ve tried so many things, with little success. So I figured going poo-less couldn’t hurt. OH WOW…it works great! The first day (Saturday), I substituted rice vinegar for ACV since I didn’t have any ACV in the house and it did okay. I noticed that my hair didn’t seem as dry and brittle as it usually did. I picked up some ACV that night and used it the next morning and my hair felt great! Admittedly, it does feel a bit odd to be scrubbing baking soda into your hair. It just doesn’t have that psychological effect of feeling clean when you do it. And the vinegar stinks! But once I’d rinsed it out well, I didn’t notice a smell at all (and I’m very sensitive to odors). It’s so worth the extra bit of effort to mix all this up.

Shopping Heaven: That’s where I was this weekend. My good friend Niles was in town for the weekend and invited me to come hang out with him, his roommate and sister. This man is my best bud for a very good reason: our favorite shopping destinations always involve two things, food and books.
On Saturday, we met up at Sunshine Market, a new oriental market that had opened recently. I’d not heard of it and when he told me to met them there, I thought it was a new natural foods shop of some kind…but then I walked in and OH WOW…paradise! It was the size of a regular grocery store, not at all like the tiny little oriental markets we already have. I could’ve spent a good few hours (as well as a couple of paychecks) in there…but I managed to show up right as they had finished shopping so I rushed through so they wouldn’t have to wait too long on me. I did manage to emerge with a few yummies, though: a bag of “Goddess” tea (which tastes like a very yummy oolong blend), some baby bok choy, a bag of plums (3 for $1!), two packages of lotus seed buns, a bag of peanut and sesame candy, and a pretty coffee/tea mug to use at work.
But we’re not done yet! After that, we went to the Kroger Marketplace, which is a HUGE superstore (they even sell furniture!) and I racked up a few more yummy items: mini wheat pitas for my bentos, hummus, half a dozen assorted protein bars ($1 each!), two bottles of Bolthouse Farms drinks (buy one get one free!), a box of Meditation Time Yogi tea, and a big bottle of organic unpasturized ACV for my poo-less rinse.
While Saturday was Food Day, Sunday was Book Day. We started off at McKay’s, the HUGE used bookstore in town. I picked up a book on Asian herbal medicine, a CD of very relaxing Indian style music, and the Sleeping Beauty DVD for Munchkin. Then we headed off to Borders where I picked up a nice book on Feng Shui that had been marked down to $5…and we both partook in a nice cup of hot chai and pumpkin spice cake. MmMmMm… After that it was Barnes & Noble, but didn’t get anything there…just browsed around.

I am so happy that Niles is in town on a regular basis now. I feel like, being married to my totally incompatible husband, that so many aspects of myself are repressed and/or just forgotten. Hanging out with Niles is so refreshing to my spiritual and intellectual self. And the fact that he’s gay and therefore “safe” makes it better because I don’t have to worry about my husband worrying about me hanging out with him for long periods of time.

I can’t wait until next weekend, after I get paid, to do it again! :)

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